There have been many things going on in my life lately that had caused me to raise questions. Not all bad things, but I've been forced to take a closer look and do a re-evalution. I'm working hard to become a better mother and wife. And I'm sure that this is categorized along with planning for that next child...you know what people say...you'll never be prepared and ready for it. This is something that I'm sure I will never feel completely satisfied with; but I can at least rest with the fact that I'm trying. Here lately I've just been thinking how I could be better at being a mother and a wife. I have built quite the road ahead of me, but I am determined. I've already acknowledged that I need to stay more calm and loosen up a bit. This last week has made me reflect on a lot. Along with my relationship with the Lord. One that I feel is just beginning to strengthen back to where it was a few years ago. And it's no fault but of that of my own that has let it fade. I spent one evening this past weekend with some other fellow church members as we went to a Jeremy Camp concert in Indianapolis. I'm a BIG fan of Jeremy Camp and so I had big expectations for the night. There were a few happenings that started my journey of this night off to a different path. I felt reserved and questioned whether I should actually be there. I dug deep inside and was able to open up and allow myself to be ministered to. It was great!! It was a release that I have needed for a long time. Definately too long since I've allowed myself to be still and open to hear the voice of my Father and take in the words He had for me. I came back refreshed and ready. Change is hard, but in the end I know it will all be okay.
Okay...enough of the deep stuff, right!?!
The kids are all doing well. They are tired of school and ready for a break. Fourth grade has presented to be a challenge for Madison this year. We are trying to keep her upbeat and encouraged. This is hard at times. Homework is harder and things are spelled out in black and white like grades prior. She doesn't get along with her teacher, nor with some kids in her class. I know every individual has to deal with this at some point. Just wish it wasn't this early for Madison.
Jonathan is taking first grade with stride. He's a 'chatter box'. I will rejoice when he has a week of something different on his weekly report. At the beginning of the week he took quite a fall off of the monkey bars and busted up his face pretty good. He's healing well as the week goes on. Football season was good and lots of fun. I think he's ready for soccer!
Rebekah is just walking all over the place and is in the middle of a rough teething phase. I notice so much more of her personality each and every day. She's probably the most spoiled daddy's girl yet! We are in a climbing phase. At least I hope it is just a phase. There isn't anything that scares this girl!
Kenny has been enjoying the start to this years hunting season. He never used to really be able to bow hunt with harvest at his last (Indiana) job.
It's hard to believe that it is time for the Holidays already. I can't believe how the year has just flown by. Just this past weekend was a year since we had moved back. CRAZY!!
Well, Rebekah has found happiness (and I have found quiet) with her sitting on my lap. Two kids showered, one finally finished with homework and supper in the oven. *sigh* I think I will wrap this up and enjoy a few moments before things get stirred up again.
Learning to embrace life and love it.
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