Things have been going well since Rebekah has joined our family. The kids are still excited to have her, even through the extreme fussiness and cries. Jonathan reminds Rebekah that there is no crying in this house....Rebekah is still trying to catch on to that! LOL We have finally settled into a schedule and I have no complaints. She will eat around 9a, 1p, 5p, 9p, 4a. I really can't fuss to much about the 7 hours of sleep I can get at night! God has blessed me well with kids that sleep of a night. I was thinking this week about that and how well all of our kids have done. Especially after hearing other's stories about their kids. I have had it pretty good =)
Rebekah has started 'cooing' over the last week or two. She is the happiest of a morning and will talk herself back to sleep after her morning feeding. I am not having to use the swing as much as she enjoys laying on the floor and looking around. She sleeps in her bed of a morning and is out in the living room for the afternoon. That works well since I go get the kids and they are anxious to hold her and play with her.
Jonathan decided to try football this year. We were excited. He was starting to worry me a little bit; I wondered if he realized that there was more to life than John Deere tractors and farming! He had been adimant all summer that he only wanted to play soccer. Once I explained to him that football was just like soccer, with the exception of carrying the ball rather than kicking it, then he was for it. He has taken a slow start easing into the sport but seems to like it. This morning he has his first game so we will see.
Over the past month Kenny and I have been in prayer over a decision that would be another big step for us and our family. This decision has led us to move back to Indiana. While I know that we will get asked a lot of questions, neither of us doubt the decision. I did at first, but I also started to realize a lot of things that I was making myself 'numb' to and just dealing with to make myself happy. We have enjoyed our time here in Missouri. The kids are enjoying school and doing remarkably well; and we have found such a God filled church. In all honesty, for me, the church has been an answer to prayers for me. I can't even begin to put into words how I feel about the church and the people. The kids took right in and didn't bat a weary eye. They have became excitedly involved and continue to yearn for the growth that the good Lord offers. Jonathan hit a milestone last week as he asked Kenny to help him ask God into his heart. What a moment!! I am anxious to have my husband back. The job here requires so much of Kenny's time that I have 'numbed' myself, ignoring how much I miss him and need him. I felt that I was doing my duty in pushing that need to the side. I pushed myself to fulfill my duty as wife and mother and continue with strong support so no weakness would be visible. The kids miss Kenny so much and as I stand back to take a look at the last four and half months I see how they have lost a little bit of themselves. I on the other hand have found myself I feel. Being at home has given me time to reflect on myself and my life, my dreams and my desires. I've learned a lot about myself. The bible study series we participated in at church last month opened up truth to me in a lot of ways about my life.
At the end of the month we will be embarking eastward and moving back. We have learned a lot during our short time here. Even through the tears, nerves, and possible worry about coming back; I can speak for myself (after many hours in prayer) that it isn't a completely horrible decision. As a family, we have learned a lot and realized more importance as parents. We have been able to spend time, just us, and treasure that time more than we ever did before. I do remain in prayer that that isn't something that is lost as we come back to friends and family. But that is up to us, we are the only ones that can allow that to happen or not happen. We will return to the area not as Greencastle Tiger Cubs, but as South Putnam Eagles! The kids will go to school at Fillmore Elementary. Not sure why I am nervous about that...maybe because there are some teachers still there that were there when I attended!! I turned out fine (no room for anyone to rebuttle that!) so I know that they will too. Jonathan's teacher will be the mother of one of my classmates and I am excited about that. She will be a good one! I've heard good things about Madison's teacher, however, I don't know her.
This last week my grandma (mom's mom) passed and made her way to heaven. Gerrit worded it so perfectly saying "....we lost grandma, but heaven gained an angel." Rebekah and I traveled back Wednesday. I have been dealing hardest with the fact that grandma wasn't able to meet her last great-grandchild. Oh, how I wish she could have met Rebekah. Grandma went into the hospital over the weekend and continued to get weak; she passed Monday evening. While I have had and still have my moments in dealing with the sorrow, I celebrate her life. She was loved by many, and many lives she touched. I know she was greeted with a great big smile and opened arms as her and grandpa were reunited in heaven. The funeral was Thursday and I will say that it has left me feeling full. It was a true celebration of life. I haven't been to many funerals in my life, but can say that it was humbling to celebrate her life and we were all filled with happiness knowing that grandma and grandpa were together again.
So...we begin the packing and planning to the new chapter in our lives...lessons learned...greater love...growth...old friends and new...questions...hardships...concerns...emotions...all covered by God's hand, even though we may not understand why.
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