Life. Reimagined.

This is probably going to jump all over the place. So many things have been going on in my head lately. I'm on a new journey for 2015 and that has started with - No more questions! Because in reality, those questions have only caused havoc only creating distance between me and my relationship with God. There is so much good in where I am at right now. It's time to quite denying it and allowing it to fill my heart and mind. 

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There's no medium as personal as music. A song can transport us back to our childhood, recall a lost love and reignite our passions. We turn to music for everything; or at least I do. It's an art form that engages my emotions like none other.

I saw a movie last year that honestly was the beginning of creating my new mind set about things. It was a limited release and I'll admit that I probably wouldn't have gone to see it had Adam Levine not been in it! But the movie has struck some chords in my mind and heart ever since I walked out of the theater. (Thank you by the way to an amazing friend who isn't afraid to drive to the far north-east side late at night to see this limited movie)

This movie called "Begin Again" reminds me why I love music -- how it touches my soul, how lyrics connect to my life, and how it deepens relationships and gives meaning to existence. The whole soundtrack of the movie reminds me why I love music ... it captures the way you feel at that particular moment. You're in love with the lyrics and the melody, but they're not a relationship; they're just the reflection of it. It's time to on the bike and 'Begin Again".


Those few who know the real me know that to just go ahead and do what other people are doing, to have some semblance of a sane, ordinary, normal and supposedly *happy* existence ... that isn't the real me. I ended up thinking about this more: the deepest human value, one that you can selectively pursue and cultivate to enrich your life, is it really happiness?

Or is happiness a consequence of doing things right?

The way to become unlost, happy, and successful is found all in one thing: purpose.

Through purpose you find passion, you find happiness, you find drive, you find meaning in an apparently meaningless existence. 

But purpose – no matter how temporary – is so important because it makes you feel like what you are doing in your life actually matters. And purpose is the ultimate fix for no longer feeling lost, no longer feeling like you’re in a dream or an observer of your own life.

It makes you feel in control.

All of us, at some point in our lives, ask ourselves “Is this all there is?”

My grand plan, my grand purpose, my work and my time… everything that I’ve worked for culminates in.. this? The life I’m currently living?

Shortly after we proceed to feel like we’ve be really shafted by someone or something, that we’re victims of fate and that we can’t believe we bought into some great cosmic lie.

And then we self-medicate.

Most of us dull the pain of our shitty, seemingly meaningless existence.

For me, my self medication was to retreat. I got tired of the struggle and didn’t see any clear way out and ultimately started giving up on changing the circumstances.

It’s an easy temporary fix, like a pill for the symptoms. But like all pills they only work for so long unless the underlying conditions are addressed.

The problem is that I had never gotten out of the cycle. I was in this sort of “existing” phase where we I merely reacted to everything happening around me. 

So I've started planning 

MY 'prison' escape!

"Happiness, in fact, is a condition that must be prepared for, cultivated, and defended privately by each person. People who learn to control inner experience will be able to determine the quality of their lives, whichi s as close as any of us can come to being happy."   -Flow